The Omnipresent "?"

Curiosity may have landed Alice in Wonderland but it also made Pandora open the Box.

Sometimes I wonder why I wonder. Why do I search for a meaning behind it all? Why must there be a meaning? And why should being meaningless be a bad thing? I wonder if I hadn't been brainwashed as a kid by the "society", with the notion of "good and evil", and the "dignity" of having a purpose and how important "knowing" is, whether I would think the same way. That would be good experiment.. I think... But now, trying to find meaning seems to be my only true goal in life. I don't know what to do and I can't make sense of it. And that drives me nuts. I see no point. And why the fuck am I looking for one?? Also, If the answer is the question. What is the question?

There's a passage from a book I came across recently - Dancing Wu Li Masters: An Overview of the New Physics by Gary Zukav" that I wanna mention....It says:

"A person who is "objective", is one without a preformed opinion. In fact, it is impossible to be without an opinion. The point of view that we can be without a  point of view is a point of view. The decision itself to study one segment of reality instead of another is a "subjective" expression of the researcher who makes it. It affects that individual's perception of reality, if nothing else. Since reality is what we are studying, the matter gets very sticky here.

Quantum mechanics tells us clearly that it is not possible to observe reality without changing it. If we observe a certain particle collision experiment, not only do we have no way of proving that the result would have been the same if we had not been watching it, all that we know indicates that it would not have been the same, because the result that we got was affected by the fact we were looking for it.

Some experiments show that light is wave-like. Others experiments show equally well that light is particle-like. If we want to demonstrate that light is a particle-like phenomenon or wave-like, we only need to select the appropriate experiment.

According to quantum mechanics there is no such thing as objectivity. We can't eliminate ourselves from the picture. We are a part of nature, and when we study nature there is no way around the fact that nature is studying itself ((*interesting huh?*)). Physics has become a branch of psychology, or perhaps the other way round.

Carl Jung, the Swiss psychologist, wrote:

"The psychological rule says that when an inner situation is not made conscious, it happens  outside, as fate. That is to say, when the individual remains undivided and does not become  conscious of his/her inner contradictions, the world must perforce act out the conflict and be  torn into opposite halves."

Jung's friend, the Nobel Prize-winning physicist, Wolfgang Pauli put it this way:

"From an inner center the psyche seems to move outward in the sense of extravasation, into the physical world..." 

If these men are correct, then physics is the study of the structure of consciousness. " 

Patterns of chaos. Chaos of patterns. All that remains imperceptible is the ever omnipresent void in which we exist... which is a contradiction in itself (I think... I mean aren't we making "nothing" a real entity/phenomenon by being able to observe it...The presence of absence?). Well, I guess customization is the only rational response to omnipresence. Of course, there's always the possibility of there being order, but if there were no disorder, the concept wouldn't mean a thing.

Regarding my perspective, which is often random and incoherent I've come across two quotes I feel worthy of mention, whether they make sense in the current context or not is up to the one trying to connect the dots, if any. (I have a hunch that they might make sense but I haven't managed to get it...yet...if someone does...please do let me know)

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all."

- Oscar Wilde

and 

"A good traveler has no fixed plans and is not intent on arriving" - Lao Tzu

But there is one quote that makes sense..sort of....especially having mentioned the excerpt from Zukav's book..

“If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there.”

 - Lewis Carroll

So...maybe, if you try finding a meaning behind it all...you just might find it or give it a meaning all by yourself [as mentioned in my previous post, perception matters. "Seek and ye shall find" [even if it's not what you're looking for]

At the very fundamental level of the existence that we perceive to be real or perhaps even make real.....what are we but frequencies and probabilities of overlapping fields..? (or so they say).
In view of that, should the parts that make up the system be considered as separate from the system itself ( & given an identity of its own) or should the system be denied it's existence as a unique entity. 
We are confused.

So, perhaps the reason why I'm trying to find a meaning behind it all is because the Universe itself wants to do so. Well, I don't mind as long as it NEVER manages to find one....why you ask? Because.. what then? 
Although the context is different (or maybe not) I'll quote Trinity from the first Matrix movie:

"It's the question that drives us, Neo. It's the question that brought you here. You know the question, just as I did."